Art Post VI: "Untitled"

"Untitled"
Winter 2009
Oil Pastels
I think I intended to use this as a background, and for whatever reason, never did. (Sometimes, I will draw backgrounds on a seprate paper, and then paste in the foreground.)
People seem to like when I draw flowers, so I share this with you. 

Fanart Friday Post III

Hikari and Takeru (Digimon Adventure)
2000
Multimedia

This is so old, I don't remember quite all the materials used. This is one of my most popular pieces on deviantart.
Around this time, I was quite the Digimon Adventure fan, and drew a lot of fan art. I miss that time, it was a lot more fun and innocent.

Daily Thoughts Post 7/13

Eh, it's been a days of existential crisis, so have just been focusing on art. Which concerns me because I don't want to burn out, but at the same time, I do want to take advantage of the motivation while I have it.


This is part of something I"m currently working on, channeling feels so maybe I can work through them and move on. I need more art supplies to finish it, though. As well as everything else I have in progress.

I'm comin' back for more
Out of a black and white world
Past a shooting star
The beauty of speed...

Vlog Post 7/12/16

In which I discuss sketch books, share some progress art, and talk about GLITTER.

Art Post V: "The Royal We"

"The Royal We"
Winter 2009
Oil Pastels, Watercolours
It was a weird time in my life, which is why there is a chunk of art from then. I was desperately trying to become a better person, some one I wasn't horrified to look at in the mirror. I knew somehow, being clean from drugs and alcohol was part of it. I just couldn't figure out how or if I was even worth saving from the bottom of the rabbit hole.
It's a battle I still struggle with, all these years later. 


When I was finishing this, my boyfriend at the time insulted it. I realize now it was a projection of his own insecurities about his own art, but it led to me to putting away art until well after we broke up. Though, I am proud to say, ironically, this ended up being the first piece of art I ever sold.

Fanart Friday Post II

Chi (Chobits)
2003
Prism Colour Marker


I'm not sure I was ever that much a fan of Chobits, but I did used to really like CLAMP. My oldest friends LOVED the series, so I would make fanart with her in mind. Drawing the ears is fu.

Art Post IV: "Spark"

"Spark"
March 2009
watercolour marker, acrylic paint
This is a heavy subject matter, but I feel like that's how it goes for my work. This was an experiment to convey the emotion with limited colours.
Back in 2007,  I was involved with some one and I was pretty reckless. I was in a bad place, it was during 3 year period of my worst drinking. I didn't care much about living so much as to feel something, anything by any means necessary.
Well, when you're not careful, things happen. I had a choice to make, but before I could, before I could even tell the person I was involved with... a choice was made for me.
That really affected me, and the feelings would hit me every year around the same time when I would smell the flowers that would remind me of the person I was involved with. So what was I do to do? 
To process the feelings, to finally move on, I did it the only way I knew how- to create something beautiful and tragic. And now here it is, for you.

Daily Thoughts Post 7/06

So I've decided to go in a bit of a different direction with the Daily Sketch Posts. The book used for it is too small to flesh out ideas, so I'm often left frustrated and unmotivated to do anything. However, I've found posting semi-daily on a blog is something I do enjoy.
Inspired by The Gothic Alice, I think I'll go back to a sketch book structure I had about a decade ago. Here, I'll share random things from my day- maybe ticket stubs from events or a flower I found. I'm excited.

Today, I wanted to post a photo with my cat because she's a great teacher about gratitude and appreciating the important people in your life. She doesn't ask for food from me or anything absurd, just that I spend time with her. In turn, she lets me know I'm her favourite person in the world and that she thinks I'm awesome. <3 br="">

Daily Sketch Post 7/05

Well, it's been a bit since I did one of these. Meant to do one yesterday, but got distracted working on a few pieces.
This was because I had been discussing doing something to share with people how I have been eating mostly gf and vegan on a budget for over two years now. 

Anyway, I'm starting to really fall in love with my art, wanting to run home to it like a lover.

This one was a forgotten sketch from Winter 2009... I saw it yesterday and meant to just ink it, but felt compelled to get it to this point. It's almost finished now. 

This one was from November 2015, and I kept meaning to get back to it, but life has been rough. But yay now I'm working on it!

I'm eager to finish these pieces and share their stories with you! 

Art Post III: "Heavy in Your Arms"

"Heavy In Your Arms"
Winter 2009
Watercolour

It's an interesting challenge to only use red and still convey the emotions. I want to do a show where the theme is paintings in red, white, and black someday soon.

People often expect me to fit in these roles they create in their head for me to play, and when they get bored or I fail to meet expectations, I am often discarded like a doll that is no longer a child's favourite. So I smile and say it's fine.

But it's not fine. I'm so much more than some child's play thing. I long for that feeling of unconditional love- not the love of a child, but the love of a parent. But for now, I'm just too much, too heavy a burden.

"I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across the ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown..." 

Fanart Friday Post I

Sumomo (Chobits)
2003
Prism Colour Marker

I always enjoyed the character of Sumomo, and she reminds me of myself in my more manic states.
This was so long ago, I don't remember too much about it, though last summer I did add a background... not sure why I never scanned it in, because I'm pretty sure it's framed now.